Resisting a(rest)
I think one of the most important ideas pushing into the collective conscious is the acceptance of rest.
More and more there is a push to accept the moments of rest, there is a greater shift to become more accepting of feminine energy in this sense.
When we are in a state of rest, a state of receiving follows quickly, and receptivity becomes embodied naturally.
The more we practice this, the more we allow this, the easier we are it without trying—true embodiment.
It becomes integrated, it becomes part of us, natural to our behavior, and then we can receive manifestations, gifts, inspiration— all of it.
I also don’t if its just me, coming out of the middle of an in-between period specifically, but the more and more I try to PUSH or WORK toward an outcome, instead of allowing choices to arrive, and softly picking what feels best, it really crumbles and ends up sucking. When I could’ve just allowed life to happen for me, or chosen to take a rest if nothing else.
I used to think that if I wasn’t at work, that if I wasn’t “hustling”, I was not succeeding. But this is literally the opposite of the type of energy that those behaviors embody. It is not to say there is not ever a time for masculine—to me Emperor/Chariot energy—when there is a time and place. But I think the whole of the world is being ushered to this new direction of being more in a state of rested flow and allowing things to come as they are.
Even as I am writing this blog post, I am not really “thinking” super hard, or efforting hard to figure out what I want to type. Im moreso resting in this wonderful cafe here in Puerto Vallarta, and allowing the good feelings to influence my fingers to type whatever comes up. It’s more like an allowing of a natural state, a natural processing, more akin to our true inner state, to flow from me onto the page. I’ve never been one to hardcore write out a template for what I am wanting to create, I think it is much more fun and authentic—and a good comparison— to begin and allow the feelings guide you to choices instead.
And I think this is a piece of the truth, there is more to it that I have not fully come to know, but beginning, once more or less in this place of rested ease, rested alignment AND THEN beginning on “work” or what have you. But then at that point, it’s never work, it’s never hustling, it always results in play, or fun, or joy or something even more.
I think we also often worry that if we do not succeed or accomplish or achieve something in our day first before taking the rest, that we are somehow failing, somehow not enough, or have not done enough to receive a “reward”.
However, this cannot be more farther from the truth. And it is totally opposite once again.
It is a paradox that I think the previous 2 generations of parents tried to pass onto us—that in order to be worthy, or to receive reward, or to be allowed fun, we must accomplish something, especially “work” beforehand. It is actually a disease that we have been passed, that our parents certainly did not know any better about, that creates a shame paradox AND often times a perpetual work loop.
For many, including myself, there is residual ideas that achievement or accomplishment is equated with the ability to receive love or acceptance, that is also often mixed in with “never enough-ism”. This is a deadly and veracious combo, that can tear away at you, and in many cases for me leads me to burnout->self-destruction and finally disillusionment with my core self.
When you think that what you do is never enough AND you can only ever take a rest after DOING enough…well you can see how disastrous this loop can be. And for those that maybe have higher predispositions for addictions or self-destruction passed on from their parent figures, this damage can be life altering or even ending.
The fact of the matter is, it is actually the complete other way around. And it is from this place of rested alignment-> then action that we achieve the most with the LEAST amount of effort.
Any one of us, regardless of where we are at in our journeys, currently wading through a dark time or not, have experienced at some point the almost instantaneousness of things coming together when we are in at least a place of clarity or any other emotion up the scale, all the way up to love. It is ecstatic, often orgasmic when you are experiencing it. Because you often are only taking actions of joy or fun, and things seem to fall into place like a dream—but it’s very real, and it ignites the heart.
With more and more experiences like this, I remember that it is important and useful, when we are tough thought loops, problematic situations, or dark places, to reach for the memories of these feelings. To call on them like a friend on your phone, and invite those feelings into your Now. It often brings me right back to those places, conjuring the same feelings all over again right to where I am in this Moment. And if not all the way up the scale, it at least helps me remember, and gives me silver string to hold onto as I navigate this fleeting dark moment.
