A thirst for Creation
In recent, there has been a consistent and persistent call to continue the creation, of anything—anything at all that comes to me.
And I think—to some extent— I have rid myself of the shame/fear combo of being bad/not-so-great at things when I start.
I cannot run or hide from the desires deep within me that scream intermittently throughout the day. Ignoring those voices, those calls, those begs, I realize has caused a deep pain within me—a pain I no longer want to put up with.
There’s something in all of us that came here to be shared, something in all of us that wanted us here to explore and expand the Universe in some way.
I don’t feel so afraid of that anymore, the vastness and confusing nature of it. Being pulled in so many directions to do one thing or the other. These days I listen, I listen closely, and act on that impulse when I can.
I feel the inner-child coming through:the play, the exploration, and the true allowing of the soft ooey-gooey inside of me to be vulnerable to these desires and dreams. And it feels so good, elating to allow that thing inside of me to come through.
I’m ravenously curious about so many things these days:
— Any and all types of dance
— Feng shui
— South Asian Religion
— The economics of stocks + trading
— Photography just for me in my day-to-day
— Silly and rambunctious poetry that I keep for myself
— Dirty and naughty poetry that I actually keep to myself and post nowhere
The list goes on.
I encourage everyone reading this to invite more play, more curiosity within them. I have many experiences and a vast amount of knowledge of life, especially related to self-growth and personal development. But I finally feel in many ways that I am actually really applying those principles in real time—which is making a world of a difference.
But especially curiosity, an allowance to get really interested in things.
I need not look elsewhere for my own aesthetic or dreams or what-have-you. I am pulled and drawn to those things Now! They are right in front of me!
Between the pictures I take, the dance classes that interest me, the Pins I save on Pinterest—I am surrounded by my own interest and love for life!
